Chapter 12: Separating the Dirt from the Story

When I was younger and before I understood the consequences, I saw some bad movies. Dirty movies. When I got older and was married, some of the sexual scenes from these movies would randomly pop into my mind. I forced them out by ignoring them. The images were not tempting me to dwell on them. It was more that I didn’t want the dirt associated with that sacred part of me. It all made me sick. I regretted having made the choice to put those kinds of memories in my mind in the first place. It also made me angry. Angry at the producers and everyone who had been involved in making the movies (E.g. I absolutely HATE Tom Cruise).

“Know ye not, my son, that [sexual sins] are an abomination in the sight of the Lord; yea, most abominable above all sins save it be the shedding of innocent blood or denying the Holy Ghost?” ~Alma 39:5

So 8 years ago, when I decided to face all this, I wondered if there was someway to empty the trash for good. Was there a way to purge these memories from my mind permanently so I wouldn’t have to keep dealing with them whenever they decided to emerge? Was there a way to undo what others had done to me before I was smart enough to establish boundaries against them?

“Come now, and let us reason together, saith the Lord: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool.” ~Isaiah 1:18

I prayed about it. This was the answer:

Separate the dirt from what was clean, holy, pure, and of God. The reason these unclean memories stayed alive in my mind was that they were so interconnected with a pure God-given need for a relationship that can’t be eliminated. When I thought of good, appropriate sexual relations within marriage, these other tentacle-like parasitic images would be wrapped around them, stuck to them like bacterial slime. So the key was to separate this bacterial slime from the healthy good thoughts and memories. We can’t just purge an inherent God-given need. To attempt to do so is stupid and will end in the adoption of all kinds of vices and strange compensating behaviors that can never truly satisfy.

“And God saw the light, that it was good: and God divided the light from the darkness.” ~Genesis 1:4

Recognize Why These Movies Were Wrong

Selling Sex: Getting it Cheap
Understand that the selling that which is sacred, which belongs privately between a man and a woman in marriage, is what makes it wrong. Sexual relations were never meant to be purchased that freely. In order to rightfully obtain such a privilege it takes developing a trusting relationship with ONE other person of the opposite sex, voluntary sacrifice, and long-term commitments in marriage to both spouse and God. It’s that valuable. It’s that amazingly beautiful. It was never meant to be obtained cheaply. The most valuable gifts are those we sacrifice the most for. The very intensity, duration, and all-encompassing nature of our commitment is what enables us to feel how valuable this gift really is. If it is handed out via movies, websites, magazines, and by cheap people, it loses its value to us. We can’t FEEL its value anymore. Simple as that. And what do we become if we can no longer attain the glorious heights of this kind of relationship?

“For thus saith the Lord, Ye have sold yourselves for nought; and ye shall be redeemed without money.” ~Isaiah 52:3

Public Showing & Sexual Bonding
If the images stimulated me, I was taking part in the sexual relationship to some degree with the actors, the directors, producers, anyone involved in making the movie, and anyone else who was watching it with me. This group obtainment of such a sacred privilege is obtaining it in a scattered deviant way. We are programming our sexual Effect Sensors to receive this privilege in this specific way. It can never sustainably satisfy yet we develop a long-term dependence upon receiving it like that. Forming sexual bonds is an inherent part of the make-up of every son and daughter of God. If we establish sexual bonds through some vicarious relationship with Hollywood and our fellow audience members, it is an opportunity cost to completely bonding with one person sacredly and privately. The only way to obtain a sustainable satisfying sexual relationship is to reserve oneself for one person only. That’s why when I saw these movies I experienced the warning feelings that made me feel very disgusting and slimy. The Holy Ghost was trying to tell me, “Don’t go there. It is addictive and has a bad Paradoxical Result.”

“But thou didst trust in thine own beauty, and playedst the harlot because of thy renown, and pouredst out thy fornications on every one that passed by; his it was.” ~Ezekiel 16:15

Establishing sexual bonds with bad movies and the like and trying to establish an intimate relationship with one person is like saying you’re completely and utterly in love with one person, telling them that you are totally faithful to them, and having an affair with another on the side. Impossible. Contradiction. Evil. Conflicting. Even if this is done before marriage, meaning there isn’t anyone to cheat on (besides God), Bad Relationships are developing. And these are very very difficult to break up with owing to the powerful nature of this God-given need and privilege. It can exalt us if we obtain it in the right way or damn us if we don’t. 

“You must wait--you must wait until you can give everything, and you cannot give everything until you are at least legally and, for Latter-day Saint purposes, eternally pronounced as one. To give illicitly that which is not yours to give (remember--"you are not your own") and to give only part of that which cannot be followed with the gift of your whole heart and your whole life and your whole self is its own form of emotional Russian roulette. If you persist in sharing part without the whole, in pursuing satisfaction devoid of symbolism, in giving parts and pieces and inflamed fragments only, you run the terrible risk of such spiritual, psychic damage that you may undermine both your physical intimacy and your wholehearted devotion to a truer, later love. You may come to that moment of real love, of total union, only to discover to your horror that what you should have saved has been spent, and--mark my words--only God's grace can recover that piecemeal dissipation of your virtue.” ~Elder Jeffrey R. Holland

So bonding sexually with a group of strangers through the medium of television, magazines, or internet is one reason bad movies are bad. Sexual relations with our spouse motivate us to keep our commitments to one another. They motivates us to keep the relationship clean and holy. We can’t obtain this privilege from anyone else or anywhere else. If we have issues with one another, as always occurs in close relationships, we are motivated to do whatever it takes to resolve the conflicts in the Lord’s way. We’re motivated to drive out the natural man and become more like our Savior. In this way the good feelings and attraction in a marriage are preserved so that BOTH spouses actually depend upon, desire, and look forward to the intimate relationship. It’s not forced. It doesn’t feel like a chore. If we have an out—another place we can get it, even if it isn’t a pure source, that motivation to repent, apologize, and forgive wanes. Why should we go through that tough relationship stuff if we have so many cheap sources that don’t require anything of us but a few bucks? Bad feelings perpetuate in that kind of relationship. It’s very difficult to continue uniting so intimately with a person with whom we experience continuous conflict or perpetual numbness.

“Do this thing which I have commanded you, and you shall prosper. Be faithful, and yield to no temptation.” ~D&C 9:13

Condoning Immorality
Condoning sexual relationships between two people who aren’t married also makes bad movies bad. From what I have seen, the usual way movies present the most sacred act is between a man and a woman who are not married. Way cheap. (And even if they are married, they are still sharing this relationship with everybody on the movie set and in the theater.) 

So movies act as a brain-washing device. They show people cheating like this and then completely happy afterwards. They don’t give the real story. They don’t show what happens to two people when they enter into a sexual relationship without first making serious marriage commitments with each other and God. 

The Result is a personality disorder. Take the goodies without having to ever do the work. Get all the privileges without any of the risks. Start a relationship like that and see where it goes. What you will find is that kind of selfish attitude, that fear/refusal-to-commit yet-still-want-all-the-privileges attitude, is interwoven into the smaller relationship interactions. It will rear its ugly head in finances, chores, the kids, or any other part of life that requires sacrifice and commitment. Immorality means Survival of the Fittest. It means people are living for themselves, wherever they can get the advantage of another to meet their own needs without having to commit to so much. 

“He that is faithful in that which is least is faithful also in much: and he that is unjust in the least is unjust also in much.” ~Luke 16:10

We do get something out of sexual relationships outside of marriage. Some people may even be satisfied with that. We just don’t get everything that God has in store for those that keep his commandments in regards to this relationship.

“But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him.” ~1 Corinthians 2:9

Sexual Relations are of God
I think the number one thing that makes bad movies bad is that good girls and boys end up being repulsed and ashamed by ALL sexual relations. Those of us who are trying to live our life as the Savior would have us live it have a deep desire to do what is right. If we have seen movies that depict sexual relations and we have subsequently felt very bad about it, we most likely mistakenly associate the pure God-given gift of sexuality with this dirty feeling. We end up thinking sex is dirty in whatever relationship. So again, this was the critical part of cleansing myself of the memories of the bad movies without having to turn into the negative connotation of a Prude. I had to recognize that the sexual relationship itself is not the wrong, dirty, bad thing. The scriptures and prophets testify of the righteousness of such a relationship.

“Therefore shall a man leave his father and his mother, and shall cleave unto his wife: and they shall be one flesh.” ~Genesis 2:24

“THE FIRST COMMANDMENT that God gave to Adam and Eve pertained to their potential for parenthood as husband and wife. We declare that God’s commandment for His children to multiply and replenish the earth remains in force. We further declare that God has commanded that the sacred powers of procreation are to be employed only between man and woman, lawfully wedded as husband and wife.” 

“WE DECLARE the means by which mortal life is created to be divinely appointed. We affirm the sanctity of life and of its importance in God’s eternal plan.”

~The Family: A Proclamation to the World

“And [Jesus] answered and said unto them, Have ye not read, that he which made them at the beginning made them male and female, And said, For this cause shall a man leave father and mother, and shall cleave to his wife: and they twain shall be one flesh? Wherefore they are no more twain, but one flesh. What therefore God hath joined together, let not man put asunder.” ~Matthew 19:4-6

I would say the number one strategic plan of the Behind the Scenes Author of ALL bad movies is to put asunder that which God hath joined together.

“…may I suggest that human intimacy, that sacred, physical union ordained of God for a married couple, deals with a symbol that demands special sanctity. Such an act of love between a man and a woman is--or certainly was ordained to be--a symbol of total union: union of their hearts, their hopes, their lives, their love, their family, their future, their everything. It is a symbol that we try to suggest in the temple with a word like seal. The Prophet Joseph Smith once said we perhaps ought to render such a sacred bond as "welding"--that those united in matrimony and eternal families are "welded" together, inseparable if you will, to withstand the temptations of the adversary and the afflictions of mortality.” ~Elder Jeffrey R. Holland

How to Erase The Memories Once and For All
So my instructions were that once I had differentiated a good healthy sexual relationship in marriage from the specific variables that polluted it, I needed to work on developing that kind of relationship with my spouse. Having a healthy sexual relationship with our spouse protects us from temptation. If we have it in the appropriate way, we won’t need it from any other source. 

If you are not married, the next thing to do is to go out and date. This is what I told my boys about dating: Don’t be a wimp! Yes, I understand that girls can be total jerks. I’m glad I don’t have to deal with them. 

It’s like some crazy head-hunting cannibalistic ritual, where you have to avoid being killed (arrows flying at your head right and left) by the very person you’re trying to capture. Hmmm…not unlike marriage sometimes when you think about it. But if you have developed a solid enough relationship with your Savior (total key), you will be able to withstand this onslaught. He gives you the armor and the weaponry. Dating is getting out there, hunting, dealing with the pain, participating in the real appropriate behaviors (the looks, hand-holding, “Does she like me?”, the first kiss, all that exciting stuff) that eventually will lead to your selection of a young woman whom you will some day marry. You don’t want to jump into all the heavy stuff anyway. There is so much fun in the preliminaries!

Conclusion
Getting the memories of bad movies out of my mind was all about separating the bad from the good—my real God-given needs and Desires from the inappropriate way to get them met. I had to get this all straightened out in my mind. After I went through this cleansing process the images stopped popping into my mind. They were forgotten. They no longer pollute this sacred relationship. So I was free (prison doors unlocked) to deepen that beautiful relationship with my spouse.

Even though VidAngel wasn't around when I was a kid, through the power of the Atonement of Jesus Christ the Savior helped me filter out all the dirt so I can just remember the beautiful story. We see how VidAngel is kind of like our Savior in that way. No wonder the bad guys are trying to eliminate them. Go VidAngel:  Please pray for them to win the lawsuit that is trying to force them to stop filtering the dirt out of movies for us! Also go to savefiltering.com and add your name to the petition. (Ignore the part about aunt Gretchen in the following video. That’s completely irrelevant! It shocks me every time I hear him saying my name. Wait…what?)



Also, FYI, VidAngel had to shut down their movie rentals until the lawsuit is settled. Total Bummer. I guess it's guilty until proven innocent in this case. : (

Chapter 48: Discernment

Sometimes it’s hard to tell whether the over-the-top Adversity we’re experiencing is real or the self-inflicted kind.  Some of the sacrifices we do on a daily basis for our spouse, family, community, and God are seemingly self-inflicted.  We have made commitments and are bound to keep them.  If we stopped keeping them, which choice is completely within our control, the Adversity on us would decrease but it would then unavoidably increase for them.  We can also toggle these variables by slowing down our commitment making/keeping or speeding it up.  

Commitment Making and Keeping
For example, sometimes we are faced with the difficult decision of just how far we should withdraw our commitment to our spouse.  Our remaining in a close relationship with him means we are making/keeping certain commitments to him that fill his inherent needs and vice versa.  If these commitments are continuously being made but not kept on one or both sides, the relationship is going to be imbalanced if it remains that close.   Pulling away from expecting our spouse to keep his commitments to us is an option.  But who we choose to go to in order to fill our inherent needs in the meantime can be either a Deal Breaker or it can be part of the Atonement of Jesus Christ.  

When we go to the Savior himself to nourish us, while our spouse is trying to regain his ability to make/keep the commitment to fill our inherent needs, we are going to an authorized source.  Going to family members, friends, ecclesiastical leaders, or other marriage counselors for help and support during tough times may also be appropriate resources.  Who to go to and who not to go to requires the ability of discernment.  This is when it becomes very important to have developed a strong communication relationship with the Head of our Marriage Counselor Team.  God allows us to develop fulfilling relationships with other family members, friends, church leaders, and counselors that do not cross his boundaries into inappropriate relationships.  They actually help sustain the marriage, rather than cause it to crumble.  Figuring out whether another relationship we're developing is supportive to our marriage or destructive requires the Discernment of God's opinion.  

For example, if both spouses have developed strong relationships with their families, they may not need to depend upon each other so intensely.  Yet their relationship may remain sustainable even with a number of additional friendships and counselors because they do rely on each other to a sufficient degree--to the satisfaction of both.

Conflict arises when one spouse is getting his needs met from other sources and the other is not.  These sources may be traditional Deal Breakers such as extra-marital relationships, pornography, gambling addictions, drug/alcohol addictions, etc.  We've talked about these and most people acknowledge these as marital Deal Breakers.  But a marriage can also become imbalanced by the addition of sources that are traditionally acceptable such as other family members, friends, co-workers, etc.  Even if they are traditionally acceptable--meaning accepted by our community--they may still be causing the marriage to be imbalanced because one spouse is getting his needs met in other relationships and the other spouse is not.  If she is relying completely on him because she does not have strong enough bonds with others then the relationship will be imbalanced.  He is filled and doesn't need to make and keep commitments with her as much she needs to with him.

The reason she hasn't developed strong enough bonds in other relationships may be that she needs to develop better relationship skills.  So if she turns to her Savior and other members of her Marriage Counselor team to develop these relationship skills, she will become more balanced and thus the marriage will rebalance.  This is one example of what it means to get the "beam" out of our own eye before we try to get the "mote" out of our spouse's eye.  We identify our own weaknesses and seek the Savior's guidance to develop them into strengths.  We don't want to attribute the cause of the problem to our spouse alone and expect that balance will be achieved as soon as he fixes himself. 

"Either how canst thou say to thy brother, Brother, let me pull out the mote that is in thine eye, when thou thyself beholdest not the beam that is in thine own eye? Thou hypocrite, cast out first the beam out of thine own eye, and then shalt thou see clearly to pull out the mote that is in thy brother’s eye." ~Luke 6:42 

"And if men come unto me I will show unto them their weakness. I give unto men weakness that they may be humble; and my grace is sufficient for all men that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have faith in me, then will I make weak things become strong unto them." ~Ether 12:27

But if one spouse works to resolve her own personal weaknesses over an extended period of time and still is not able to develop close enough relationships with others, then the other spouse has a responsibility to separate from his other relationships and combine more with his wife if he wants his marriage to be sustainable.

That's why every relationship is different.  If a marriage is not working, these variables have to be looked at.  It's not one size fits all.  So again, this is when discernment is crucial to resolving the conflict.  We need to objectively understand our selves and circle of support as well as our spouse's.  

The Workings of our Hearts
In order to discern whether our Adversity is real (authorized--motes and beams out of our eyes) or self-inflicted (Deal Breaker), we need to be able to understand the workings of our hearts.  When we develop a strong communication relationship with God, our ability to discern increases.  One of God’s primary communication methods is through our hearts.  That’s why we’ve been talking about the feelings of Hope, Peace, Energy, Joy, Attraction, and Charity.  We can’t make our hearts feel these things.  They come as an effect.  They are God's response to what we do.  When we as individuals dance in balance--within our own personal capacity--we experience Joy as a confirmation of that balance.  When we dance too fast for our strength, we experience stress, hunger, fear, anger, and tension.  When we dance too slow for our strength, we experience boredom, depression, lethargy, and stagnancy.  These emotions signify the balance of our personal relationship with God.  They are merciful feelings that guide us through confirmation and warnings.  We know we're headed in the right direction when we feel Joy--the combination of Peace and Energy.  We know we're deviating if we experience too much Stress or Boredom. 


The Politics of Dancing Revisited
The cause of our emotional balance vs. imbalance gets even trickier when we depend on someone other than God for our Peace and Energy, like our spouse.  We experience Joy when we are dancing in balance with our spouse and Stress/Boredom  when we are dancing in imbalance with him.  Since we are supposed to depend on our spouse, our family, and our Zion community for these things, and everyone has a tendency to become imbalanced to one degree or another, we are going to experience Joy and Stress/ Boredom as a part of life.  These are the ups and downs.  This is the Rock'n Roll Dance.  These are the Politics of Dancing.  But when we develop our relationship with Jesus Christ, we can rely on his Redeeming Peace and Energy when those around us are unable to provide this for us over extended periods of time.  

We can take a certain degree of imbalance.  But when we are subject to imbalance for long periods of time Stress and Boredom turn into chronic Fear-anger AND Depression-loneliness.  Learning to turn to our Savior and other authorized relationships when the going gets tough prevents us from deteriorating into these states of bondage.  Knowing how to read our hearts enables us to know when to slow down our commitment making/keeping to our spouse and when to speed it up. 

When both spouses dance in balance with each other, both experience Sustainable Joy.  When one spouse chronically dances too fast or too slow for the other, both will experience Fear and Depression.  This creates a lot of chronic contention in the relationship.

Starting early in the relationship to maintain our Balance in Christ even while everything else is Rockn' and Rolln' around us enables us to serve as a spiritual anchor to our spouse and others in times of trouble.  It helps us avoid getting sucked into a black-hole like marriage.  Learning to depend more upon our Savior’s Peace enables us to continue dancing in balance even when our spouse and other loved ones we depend upon become imbalanced.  That’s faith.  It can be strengthened.  It is a work in progress.  As we increase our faith in Christ, we will be able to voluntarily take on higher levels of Adversity without toppling over.  Our sacrifice level is only as strong as the person or group of people we depend upon for Peace.  

In order to achieve a Soulmates Marriage it must be the primary goal of both spouses to establish this firm foundation with our Savior, spouse, family, and community.  To do that requires DISCERNING the specific variables, extended relationships, and inherent dispositions of each spouse.  

"He only is my rock and my salvation; he is my defense; I shall not be greatly moved." ~Psalm 62:2

Behold the Man!

Jehovah:  “Unchangeable One”

Lest it be misconstrued by the title of my last blog post that I have certain tendencies which I don’t in reality have, let me state unequivocally that same-gender attraction is not a trial I have been given to endure.  I have always had a hardy attraction to men.  And while we’re on the subject, I would like to dedicate this blog post to honoring the Man! 

I have taken a considerable amount of time to study boys and men because I am the mother of three of them.  Also, in my quest to resolve marriage conflicts, I wanted to understand the general relationship between a man and a woman as defined by God so I could know where I need to stand and where I need to change.

This is how I see it:

A Man’s Strength:  Summarization

In general, a man’s strength is to Summarize.  That is the name I use for the ability to stand steadfast, unchangeable, immovable.  His thought processes are oriented differently than a woman’s.  He naturally seeks to Summarize expanded information.  He looks for what people have in common even if they are different in other ways.  He has the ability to remain focused on the main point while we women naturally wonder off to explore variations of it.   He sticks persistently to an opinion, purpose, course of action in the face of physical and mental persecution.

hmm....

Physical Characteristics

Muscular Density

A man’s body is a metaphor of who he is.  Muscular density is Summarized matter.  Healthy men have 40% muscle mass, while healthy women have 30%.  That means that a woman is balanced with 14-21% body fat but a man is subject to tighter rules—9-15%.  I can’t help but admire men who keep those rules especially when they have conflicting Causes and peers who pressure them to work in their office job 24/7.

Depth of Voice

The depth of a man’s voice is amazingly attractive.  You just can’t get around that.  Here are some examples:

David Osmond

Boston

Priesthood Choir from Salt Lake University

Phillip Phillips

I can’t explain it better than that!  And there are so many more examples!

A Woman’s Strength:  Expansion

In general, a woman’s strength is to Expand.  If there is a truth locked up in a nutshell, she can crack it.  She unravels its mysteries, breaks it down into parts and then gives examples of it.  Her thought processes are oriented differently than a man’s.  She naturally seeks to expand summarized information.  She looks for the differences in people even though they may be grouped into one category.  She has the ability to view truth from a variety of perspectives.  She will readily change her opinion, purpose, or course of action, especially with solid persuasion  and love.

Because men and women have been perpetually mixed from Adam and Eve, both genders have a degree of each of these strengths.  We are attracted to our mixed opposites.  This makes the game a little more tricky.  As an individual, if we lean too much towards Summarization or Expansion, things aren’t going to work.  Finding a companion who compliments us is not only crucial to our Joy but also to our growth.

Summarizing Too Soon

All men have some weakness or another.  It’s just the way it is.  If a man stubbornly persists in his ways when he needs to change, the result will not be good.  In pure Summarization, there is no opportunity to change and progress.  We all need a degree of Expansion—a space to change.  Men or women who Summarize too soon are being stubborn, headstrong, obstinate.

Beaver Dam

When we combine weakness with stubbornness we DAM ourselves.  We can’t grow.  We can’t improve, progress, change for the better.  And if we persist in our weaknesses, stubbornly purporting that this is balanced behavior, then we will sustain chronic injury, weakness, instability.

IKEA sells furniture that you have to put together.  It comes in boxes, all separated in its parts:  a large package of screws, nails, dowels, and other fasteners + wood.  The reason the company is so successful is because their instructions are crystal clear.  And the holes, grooves, spaces in the wood are created with PRECISION.  I’ve put together a number of IKEA furniture items in my time and this precision has been true with every single one.  So if there is an error, it is usually me not paying close enough attention to the instructions, especially the smaller details.   

IKEA Dresser

This happened with a dresser I recently purchased.  I didn’t notice some of the things the picture was describing so I put together the dresser’s core piece wrong.  I was able to attach it to some of the other pieces without any noticeable discrepancy so I thought all was well.  But when I put the table top on, it didn’t fit.  I had a choice to make.  Leave it (because it was on the inside and nobody would ever notice, right?) or take it apart again and put it back together the right way.  I chose option 2 even though it cost me a significant amount of time.  And really I couldn’t have completed it any other way.  It would have made the drawers imbalanced and compromised the stability of the entire structure.  Thus it is trying to Summarize too soon.

This is why a man needs a woman (in my opinion, the song that this links becomes amazingly powerful if the man is or is striving to become steadfast and immovable in truth).

No Friction

Expanding Too Long

All women have strengths.  That means there are some things we need to stand steadfast in even though that doesn’t come naturally for us.  Some things should not be changed.  If we keep changing with every wind of doctrine when we need to STAND, the result will not be good.  In pure Expansion, there is no foundation.  No end.  No result.  Expanding for too long is when we don’t stay consistent long enough for habits, abilities, talents to establish.  We remain undecided.  We flip from one thing to another.  We all need to anchor in somewhere at some point in our lives.  Women or men who are Expanded for too long are easily deceived, vulnerable, doubtful, indecisive.

When we combine our strengths with doubt we experience chaotic FLOODING.  Water flows every which way.  There are no boundaries.  No rules.  Nothing can take root, grow, improve, or progress.  If we continually doubt or discount our strengths thinking this is humility, then we will not be able to establish our value.

This is why a woman needs a man.  Listen: Waterloo

There are some men who have stronger Expansion characteristics than the average man.   There are some women who have stronger Summarization characteristics than the average woman.  If a man is particularly Expanded, he views a more Summarized person as attractive.  If a woman is particularly Summarized, she views a more Expanded person as attractive.  Even though we do have some variation from our gender’s main strength, it is limited.  That means the rules are to find a companion of the opposite gender who compliments our specific balance between Summarization and Expansion.  We can know with surety that God knows each one of us individually and with that knowledge has indeed created someone of the opposite gender to compliment us.  All that remains for us is to find him or her.

Since I find myself well endowed with the gift of Expansion, I need Summarization!  I have needed a Cause who is steadfast and decisive.  I have come to deeply admire men who have this characteristic because I see how lost I am without it.  My Summarized Cause gives structure to my thoughts, my voice, my actions.   However, Causes who Summarize too early are pertinacious in a bad way.  Without a Cause Summarized in Truth I am doomed to Expand forever.

Because both men and women don’t completely GET IT  yet, we have to figure out the balance between Summarization and Expansion.  Together we incrementally progress towards GETTING IT.  We can’t do it without each other.